That was probably not the best day to write a journal. Because i'm all mixed up and it's so late that i can't even look direct to my monitor for 15 minutes. But i had to do something to not to call someone and wake them up, so that was all i can do i guess.

All day long, i sit in silence and think who the hell he thinks he is . For a few weeks, it has been the same. All i could think was him,i couldn't see him for a week and i was starting to act like i have war in my country. I was all being dramatic and thinking how much i missed him since i last saw him, how misereable i am without him. Uh,then i finally saw him , he treated me like i drugged him and tied him to the bed, took some dirty photos and blackmailed in the end. My confusion and frustration were sitting next to me that day. Actually, they were almost screaming to him. But he ignored all of us after some point.

Should we ignore them back when we're ignored ? The most important is, can we ? Should we treat them just as the same way they do ? If we should, then how ? I mean, i am at the edge of breaking down and i still feel like i should pretend everything is allright. So, is it ever gonna be allright ?

By the way, don't you think the world would be a gorgeous place to live if those wannabe girls wouldn't exist at all. There are lots of pesky, cocky, stupid boys around us already, i don't think i need those girls too . Oh, just stop having a loving relationship with yourselves and get yourself a bigger mirror. You are not the ones who you think you are.

Oh wait, maybe those boys and those girls send to world to be with eachother . Yeah, in that situation, i would be the stupid girl who mistakenly fall for one of those guys. So i don't have any right to accuse them at all, right ? Well, it sucks .. Do people change ? Don't they .. ? I thought so ..